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Im so fuggin sick of myself.. and people around me.. its so frustrating.. Who can i trust? I think i really hurt Michael today, it just didnt feel right. Why must i be such a terrible person?i think i derserve to be hated right now. By everyone.i hate myself.Im so sorry michael ur so awesome I guess u just wont understand. No one does and no one will
No im not done yet
I hate divorce. My family is cursed. damn. If my uncle really divorces my aunt kristen it will kill her. she is already cryin 24/7 and has lost 6-10 LBS omg this is freaking so messed up. Everyone messes up a relationship or marriage at least once in my family. My gpa and his wife were both married 3-4 times. My mom had me obviously.., Josh had kali, beth has been married twice, my cousin is divorced, and thie jermey and kristen. This isnt right. I actually like kristen. If he leaves her ill never forgive him, and if he re marries dont expect me to be at the wedding. I sound bitter right now but i dont care this is my journal and if u dont like it then dont read it.Why is there such thing as divorce? doesnt anyone know.. can anyone explain. I think it should be illegal.anyone agree?
hmm, is depression real or is it just a mindset people have?Can people really be so terribly un happy about everything. can people really be bipolar? if so something is wrong with me. I wish isaac and i really could go to therepy together. Is it alright to hide how u really feel inside?Hide it by a smile or two? Oh God forbid u would ever have to walk a mile in my shoes.Today I really realized some things. Im not normal .... well i already knew this but i tend to hurt people more then i should and i tend to change my mind all the time. I am convinced im bipolar. People used to call me bipolar kiddingly. Maybe they were secretly serious?NO this entry is not for attention . thats the last think i need i jus got to write all my thought down and oh wow look at that i have a journal to write it in. Oh and for that certain someone.. cough cough.. who said that all punkish people are totally depressed and have something wrong and are going to hell... they arent but maybe you got ur wish on me. are you happy? because ur part of the reason ,my love.
once again... please give me answers... anything? anyone?
today jelly was around a sewing machine and she sewed thru her tiny lil baby finger. it was all the way thru the bone we had to get it out it might be broken. Poor child.
ok maybe im down now...answers????
oh and please dont label me